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That's the thing about music when it hits you feel no pain. Thanks, Bob. I agree.
I keep replaying The Xx - Intro. And there are no words. Just a long stretch of wonderful instrumental that makes my heart feel better ...and sad at the same time.
OMG.
I keep thinking about stupid rebound. And I can't help but think I'm a fuck up who falls for rebounds. I am May Miguel, serial monogamist 10 years guilty.
When am I going to learn the true value of solitude? Not the kind where I enjoy my alone time. Because I do. I'm talking about not being attached to someone, not having someone to call my own, or vice versa.
When am I going to get to the point where I don't need someone to constantly be there to fulfill me.
I am May Miguel, and dead inside. Walking zombie corpse with a soul and doesn't eat brains.
I am May Miguel, broken and fucked up.
I'm being dramatic.
And I think I'm being dramatic because I hate the way I feel right now. OMG. I hate myself. I think that's why I am being dramatic. I have come to the full conclusion that I think I hate myself and who I am as a person.
Oh God. Here comes dramatic May.
I need to go. I'm going to go crazy.
Coming off a 14 hour night shift can do that to you.