People look at my necklace with the initials engraved, SMC, and everyone asks, what does it mean? And I reply with a smile,

Scott Matthew Clark.

And I know it's stupid that I might have the initials of my boyfriend around my neck. But I shrug when people comment something stupid or when I feel something stupid, because it doesn't matter, it's around my neck, not theirs.

When I write and people are staring at what I write, they notice the ring on my finger, and they say 'pretty ring,' and I say, "Thank you, my boyfriend gave it to me."

When people ask where my boyfriend lives and I tell them that he lives 550 mile away, they look at me queer, and say "Oh."

I was talking to this guy who use to like me in Kansas City.

RHS04hagerty:got new bfs yet up there?
Wish4hope:I'm still with Scott
RHS04hagerty: the guy from here?
Wish4hope:yeah
RHS04hagerty: damn
RHS04hagerty: isn't that tough?
Wish4hope: yeah
RHS04hagerty: i couldn't even imagine trying something like that

T.J, that boy that said I didn't fit in, the one I sit by in chemistry, said that I was wasting my time.

I could never do that.
Yeah well...
You're in highschool, you should be having fun!
Parties?
Yeah! Parties! Why we weighed down by someone you can barely see? That's stupid.
(shrug)
I'll take you out sometime. I'll show you...wasting time.(shrug)

And sometimes I wonder what if what I am doing is even worth it. And sometimes I do question. And I feel it all to well.

Why be with someone 550 miles away, I am only 16 after all. Right? Right.

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