I just finished some mushroom clam chowder. And it's funny because I thought I'd never be able to eat any of those things just fore mentioned, but it seems that I have acquired a taste for it. It's funny how 'gross' things were when you were younger, like brocolli or spinach ...I guess things just change.

My throat hurts so I've decided that I should try and soothe it down with some

But it's actually coating it thick with a creamy sort of sugar. It's not bad but it sure does make me feel fat.

Light Hearted

I thought this diary was going to be lighthearted. Let's try and keep it fun; there has been way a lot of drama for the past few weeks and it's making my head itch.

I think I might take a nap soon. I never could before because I had things to do and I wanted to do them all before 9:00. Because that is the time I talked to Scott. Because that was our time. And it isn't anymore.

He IMed me yesterday. And he yelled at me. And I tried to be okay about it and hold my ground. He got mad because everyone started getting mad at him. It wasn't really my intention but most people wanted to know why we broke up so I told them why. Because this is the first time it is real and I can't hold it all inside. And when he was yelling at me all I could think about was Brian. Brian because I'm not sure how Scott would react if he ever found out about Brian, the guy with the nice smile. I kept everything hidden because I couldn't let Scott know. And I tried not to hurt when he kept yelling at me. So I made my tears quiet while I bit my lip until I felt a metallic taste to comfort the swelling within my heart. I closed my eyes and I just breathed. I just breathed.

I need to breathe now. I'm going to get through this. Being together, just together with or without the title for two years isn't a lot, right? Yeah two year isn't a lot. And I'll be okay. It wasn't that a big part of my life. Not really. No way.

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