Whatever You'd Like To Call It
I guess it's been a while since I've said anything and I'm sure you don't really mind.
I guess it's 'cause I don't have much to say and I don't feel like completely boring you with some random pointless tid bit.
My brother is coming today and my sister came on wendsday; so it's all about the family for right now.
My words are limited only because I don't want to say what I feel. I don't want to say that I feel lost or that I am because I know the only way to save myself is to search for me and the point is... I'm just scared of what I might find.
I just haven't been thinking much because I don't want to be all angsty anymore. I just want to be normal. Ordinary. Average. Whatever you'd like to call it. It's not even a big deal about what I'm going through right now. It's really not. Nothing at all.
I just don't want to think and writing makes me do that. And that is why I don't write. And that is why I think I'm dead. Or sleeping. Or lost. Or whatever you'd like to call it.
