So, I stayed home from school today.

I didn't get any sleep and I went to bed around 8:45.

I told my parents I had a headache, and I guess they were too tired to argue so they let me sleep in. My mother asked me later what was wrong and this is what I told her.

My dog was acting like a crazy baffoon last night. She would not shut up. Around 12:00 I guess someone went down stairs, which I later discovered was my mother, and why she was running around and making a ruckus last night was beyond me. Because of this ruckus my dog, Mina, went anal and started barking and whimpering up the wazoo. She kept crying until I got up and let her out. It took me 20 minutes to fall asleep again and then as soon as I did, I heard whimpering on the other side of my door and knew that she wanted to be let back in. Oh, the irony. I forced myself to get up and sleepily opened the door, and then tossed her on the bed along with myself.

About 30 minutes later someone turned on the hallway lights and went back downstairs. Mina was at it again. Over and over again this happened. The same damn routine.

Finally after all the endless waking up because of the whimpering, leting her out, letting her back in, tossing her back on the bed ...it stopped.

Finally. Sleep. No more waking up. And this was when I heard it. May... I froze and I laid really still. What the fuck?... I thought. And I heard it again... May... I must have been making things up in my head due to my sleepiness and for a second I thought I was dreaming, but I could feel the sweat on my palms so I knew that I wasn't sleeping just yet. I slowly peered over my covers to look around and I saw Mina lying next to me curled into a white little ball ...so, I must have imagined it ...Mina would have heard it too ...if someone was whispering my name.

But I swear to God, on all that is holy, on the love that Scott and I once had ...that I heard someone whisper my name ...and it wasn't my voice ...even if it was in my head, even if I did dream it up, it felt so real. It sounded so real. Like that person was right beside my ear.

I know this shouldn't seem like anything and it isn't but that is why I didn't go to school today ...because I heard someone whisper my name and I had no idea who the fuck it was.

For a while I laid in my bed, really still, lying so close to Mina for security, that I rolled on top of her... My mind always plays tricks on me. A long time ago when we first moved to Lee's Summit, my brother and I were late for the bus. My brother was still inside trying to find something, his back pack maybe, and I was tying my shoes ...I looked up for and I saw the bus ...and I stood up and screamed for my brother to hurry up. As soon as I opened the door the bus was again. This last for 2 or 3 seconds. And the bus usually slows down even if we aren't waiting on the driveway.

It was just strange because I could swear on my life that I saw it. That I did. I swear I did. And I'm not making this up.

It just reminds me of that day.

Or when I was going through my DIALBO II fetish (a computer game) it was 5 O'clock in the morning and I was up battling all the evil of the diablo world when I heard someone whisper. And I looked around and no one was there. And it's been a long time. I don't usually like to remember that I hear voices when no one is around, so I forgot exactly what was said. I just remember hearing something.

I guess you think I'm making this up. I guess you think I'm just trying to make my life more exciting by telling lies. And I guess I do that sometimes ...create hyperboles to make everything more livable. But I did hear those things. Or maybe not. Or maybe it was just because I was really tired both of the times. And that my mind is always playing tricks on me.

Anyway, later.