But my ADD has taken a hold of me and all I'm doing is listening to music and looking at people's xanga's. Sometimes, I'm such a stalker.

I have this fucking homework to do that I'm pissed about because it was due friday and I forgot to turn it in because I was sick thursday. & I have no idea what the fuck I'm suppose to write about. Who the fuckin' hell is "Peter the Great," I never got a handout on that little bitch. HOTDAMN.

Shit like that just pisses me off.

That's my ranting for today.

So I refuse to do my homework. That way I can fucking fail at this easy school and prove to the world that I'm a dumbass. & then I won't be able to get back into Sion thus completing my doom for next year. If I was forced to go to this damn School next year, I would gouge my eyes out and become a man. I swear.

My sister's best friend, Angela, flew from good ol' texas to stay with us. We went to Todai, an awesome SEAFOOD japenese restaurant buff-et. I LOVE SEAFOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Anyway, it was like an hour wait so we went window shopping 'cause my sister and I didn't have money & Angela wasn't interested in spending any (even though she bought something from Victoria's Secret! Damn...) We also went to Fredericks.

AND GOD I MISS SEX.

I hate to analyze it but I haven't gotten any play in forever. & I swear I'm dying. I've been sexually deprived for so long. I need some penis. I mean I've been a good girl (for the most part) so I think that I should have some well deserved penis. No fucking joke. I need to get laid. Maybe that's why I'm so fucking antzy all the fucking time.

I'm a Nymphomaniac.

I know when I go down to Missouri for Spring Break I'm gonna wanna have sex with what's his butt. But then I think to myself that I care about him too much to have casual sex with him. But then I think ...how many months have I gone now? And it's not like it matters anyway ...we'll both be like rabbits anyway.

Maybe if we're really drunk I won't feel so bad.

Anyway, I'm just in a really horny mood today.
That's enough of that.
Gah.

I saw some crotchless panties today at the mall. Omg, I want them. I was like holy shit, those things are fucking amazing. Talk about convienent, eh? I was all thinking about how many cute thongs I could have saved from stretching if I had those lacey crotchless slutty panties earlier. So Imma get me a pair later on before Spring Break. Well, ya know why...

Sometimes I don't want to go down there and have sex with him because I don't know what that would to me emotionally afterward or what that would do to us. & I'm just through with it all. I'm not in the mood for everything to get all fucked up. I don't want him to be my fuck buddy either because I feel that would just degrade us somehow. So I don't really know what I'm gonna do...

I know that the logical solution to this is just fool around with some other guy but the thing is I can't picture touching another guy. It just doesn't appeal to me. Well maybe if he were Tom Welling ...but the likelihood that I would meet Tom Welling down there ...and he'd be willing to get down and dirty ...is slim to none. & that's the only other guy. So, you see my dilemna.

Gah, man, sometimes I wish I wasn't such a horny toad.