I should be studying for my second Calculus quiz for tomorrow. But I'm not. I'm spending my time writing in this block of white because I suddenly feel overwhelmed by nostalgia and sentimentality. I've been rereading some of my past entries and I don't know what to think.

The thing is: I don't remember being that sad. I just don't. I think it was because of typical cliche teenage angst phases, to tell you the truth. To be completely honest. But I hate being blaming things on that teenage angst shit. It seems like such a copout.

But I'm really not sure about it all.

It's funny how time flies by and you don't realize how much things have changed because the scenery is still the same. And the reflection is just a little bit older but there's no drastic change. It all seems like the same day --- the same year.

But it isn't. It's more than that. It's older than that.

I think I'm different now. Not complete opposite kind of different. I mean the kind of difference of maturity. I've just matured but I am still young.

I love my life. Every aspect of it. I think it's wonderful and I thank God everday for letting me live it. For giving me the opportunity to be me. To experience relationships and events.

Life is so much more beautiful than I am trying to convey.

There was no real point to this entry. I just had a lot on my mind because I've my addiction to nostalgia. I did it for the sake of how I use to write in here all the time and I did it for the excuse to relive some of my memories as I typed this.

It's funny how I don't type in here as much. I remember when I use to write multiple entries first in Ndslotesse
and in the beginning of this diary when I started it Junior year. And wow, just that past sentence that I type made me chuckle.

I haven't truly forgotten about this diary because I do keep coming back despite how long it takes me to. The hiatuses between entries are so significant to my development. It's unfortunate that I haven't been able to share them. I almost consider this online diary as one of my greatest accomplishments, as pathetic as that sounds. But I've kept it up for so long and really is a great record of the latter part of my teenage years. It will make a great bedtime story for the kids, eh?

Wow. Time really has flown by.

Life is short. When people say that you have all the time in the world. You don't. So live now. Experience whatever you can --- right now. Because you'll never have that moment back to experience it.

I think I should start studying for my Calculus Quiz. I want to get an A in that class. Wish me luck.

...Maybe if you're lucky I'll come back sooner than you think and tell you what grade I recieved.

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