2009-09-23 at 3:22 p.m.
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Break ups are hard. And I want to say it gets easier with time. And it does. It does get better. You have to believe that.

I don't want you to have a pity party and think that's you're not going to be okay. Because you are. Because I know you.

You know what I'm starting to think? That I have and had no idea what love is. And now I'm just confused about what I'm suppose to feel. After a six year relationship that this diary has documented and the little blurp of an almost year relationship that almost surpassed the six year relationship... I realize I have no idea what it is.

And I'm starting to become someone that I don't recognize. And it's not that I'm ashamed or proud. Just neutral and confused. And I want some answers.

And I wish God's voice was audible without having to close my eyes. And I just want someone to tell me what my life will be like. I've decided that surprises are not for me. I want to know where my life is going.

I'm tired. Sleep. And need to study.

Bye

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